22 weeks

Our second babe

is already

keeping us on our toes.

Once again,

too much unwanted

anxiety at our 22 week appointment.

The nurse picked up the heartbeat

quickly, 153.

But listened longer than usual.

Babe wouldn't sit still (big surprise).

Again, another unwanted sound picked up,

besides the kicking and turning.

I held my breathe, knowing

this wasn't normal.

She got the Dr.

He tried to pick up the heartbeat,

but this time babe

was even more mad.

I tried to smile at my stomach bouncing.

There can't be anything wrong right?

Look how strong babe is!

But inside, worry, scared.

Please lay still babe.

They put us on the babe "EKG" monitor

for 15 minutes.

In order to get a good tracing I basically had to

press the monitor as hard as I could into babe,

holding the squirming little one in place.

I prayed the entire time,

these appointments usually take 5 minutes.

Nothing is ever wrong.

That wouldn't happen to OUR family.

We have become so comfortable that for only the second time

ever

Jake and Trent didn't come with me.

I had already been there an hour.

I realized I missed them more than ever.

I realized how much I was taking everything for granted.

If there is a problem with your heart babe,

its OK,

we love you.

But please be healthy.

After 15 long minutes,

a mind and heart filled with thoughts and prayers

and two very sweaty palms,

the tracing came back normal.

A sigh of relief.

A prayer of thanks.

Fighting back tears to make it home to hug

my boys.

But then a smile as I realize

Trent will be the calm one in the family.

Wow, that is hard to believe!

But this little babe,

already causing so much mischief

will definitely keep us

on our toes.

As I get older,

I look forward to Thanksgiving

and what it means

more every year.

What about you?

Love, the rockinryans